Thursday, September 23, 2004
i wish ive got a good book to read. so that i can sit down at somewhere quiet, away from the crowd and the hustle and bustle of modern albeit monotonous lifestyle. that has always been my idea of relaxing and de-stressing. it may appear to be boring and dull, but its the simple stuff in life that enables us to reflect. to some, isolation may be pretty weird. To me, it is unique in its own way. i don't know. it seems that of late, i prefer to be alone. im wishing that i will find myself sitting on a comfy armchair, with a cup of freezing mocha and a whole bowl of fruits ( mangoes, strawberries, starfruit, guava, grapes, bananas are a must). life is like a bowl of fruits. sometimes sweet, sometimes sour, sometimes thorny, sometimes smooth.
don't we get sick of experiencing the crests and troughs of life. doesnt it get tiring. why cant we achieve what we desire. why cant we get what we want. why cant i stop making myself sad. im supposed to be happy. i mean. prelims are over. only 1 more round of exams. ya right. im not too sure what will happen after that. however, whatever happen will happen. i believe in destiny and fate. we may have the best of plans, but there are always better plans for us.
for the 6billion souls out there. isn't it rather interesting that our paths are all different. isn't it kinda amazing that there are 6 billion tributaries and river channels out there, before confluencing at the end of time.
it seems that only books can get my mind off troubles in life. it is sort of an emergency exit that we can take to temporarily escape from all the problems we face.
i mean. i might sound retarded at times. esp the words i say. its just to console myself. its my break now. but i dont feel like break-ing. ive tried everything i want to try. which means that i forbid myself to try lots of stuff. i hate myself for that. i need to be more adventurous. .
im materialistic. thinking of making it big. shld i review that plan? one is successful in life once he is contented with what he have. somebody may not be rich, but he is not in poverty. its just that he is not blessed with money. he cld be blessed in other aspects of life. something which everybody needs to explore. besides, money is never enough. we will never come accross anybody who would contentedly declare that he is satisfied with his current predicament or situation. such a declaration are just plain lies. in this world, its all about brand. we shldnt deny it anymore. being a modern society, brand matters.
and so does the brand of my school. why shld they name my school with that of an estate. its just not fair. so much for meritocracy. ppl judge you from where you are. its just not fair. but ive long accepted that im part of e college. just that i wish there can be some major changes made to the way the school is managed. theres seriously nothing wrong with the way things are handled. but somehow, we are not adapting fast enough to major changes. oh well
i dunno.. im just one confused soul who needs to sit down and relax....
|| nobone ran out @ 9/23/2004 10:21:00 pm ||