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Thursday, January 13, 2005

ok
guess its worsening
i don't know
i miss the old times
those little things that we just overlooked
and did not appreciate
but to realise that we miss them
after learning that we will never experience them again
isn't it sad
that it seems we are never satisfied
always wishing to revert to the past
or aspiring a better future
my mind is playing clips of past events
things that i do that might be of lil significance
but still significant after all
like walking frm marine parade to katong to get to the bus stop after night outings
like dragging myself to school
like checking hp in the morning to ensure i wont miss the bus
like listening to perfect10 in the morning and cursing the deejays
like looking forward to weekends so i can wake up slightly later

one day
i will miss
waking up late
sleeping late
going to work
mrt rides
rushing for seats on the train
shocked expression everytime i tap my ezlink

somehow i feel quite contented nowadays
coz its no use feeling down
i mean afterall, im enlisting late
actually rather down coz of it
cant climb far for NS
late enlistment means late ORD
whatever
i mean
juz make the best of whatever we have
we only live once
its cliched i noe
but its true
at least im not regretting what i didnt do
i just regret that i didnt enjoy enough
didnt treasure the moments
and savour every second

things happen for a reason
or maybe several reasons
im just not used to the idea that now
we are no longer hanging out with our friends
as frequent as we used to
everything seems different
awfully distinct
and distant
far far away

im gonna be 19
its fast
growing up seemed to be taking forever when i was 14 or 15
now...
if only we can freeze time
to do more
maximise......
if only
if only there is no such thing as if only
if and only if .....

|| nobone ran out @ 1/13/2005 11:55:00 pm ||

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