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Friday, June 24, 2005



im not sure
im not confident
i dunno
but im just following my instincts

oh well
i think im expecting too much
but i can feel
that somehow
things wont go my way

just look at tonight
e labtop been set up
and connected
ipod wired up
hp ready to be charged
wires all over the room
but yeah
putting in effort at the wrong time
:)

maybe i should give up
things has nvr gone my way
and guess it will nvr will
but theres always miracles
rare chances.

obviously i cant show what i feel
i need to learn how to control it
otw i will lose the game

somehow i can sense that its really a game
i mean feel
but im not a good player

is it really worth it?
am i wasting time and effort?

it has not even begun
and im tired...
im lousy




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had GSMB dinner at Bliss Garden Restaurant.
yeah
just some ballroom at singapore expo
where they cramped at least 80 tables.
there were hardly space for movement lah
bet there were at least 1000 ppl who attended

oh well, its held coz they won some MINISTER OF DEFENCE award
which they have won for 3 consecutive years.

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im feeling disappointed now
coz of a minor matter
better control myself
cant afford to get it blown out of proportion.

but i cant believe it
why get upset over minor matters
it has never been ranked as one of my priorities

i feel happy now actually
knowing that i managed to secure a place in uni
and that my driving test is coming
and everything at home is fine
and i have lots of friends though not really close to most of them
and friendly colleagues at S1 branch
and yeah. that thing is missing
but i dunno
shld i search for it
or shld i keep on waiting

lets just live on a daybyday basis

|| nobone ran out @ 6/24/2005 01:04:00 am ||






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